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what the hell am i supposed to update about?
happy belated to leah :-* but that was a given. sorry i'm delayed.
and thats right, i only update with 1-3 lines.
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[24 Sep 2003|08:29pm] |
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i hate you. i hate me. i hate them. i hate her. i hate him. i hate everyone. i hate that my paid account expires in 3 days and i hate that i dont care.
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[09 Sep 2003|08:10pm] |
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look its an update from me. are you excited? because apparently i'm not. i dont want to update. as a matter of fact i hate updating. goodnight.
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[27 Aug 2003|04:18pm] |
yup.
i have no point in updating.
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[15 Aug 2003|11:52pm] |
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is it bad that thinking of you brings tears to my eyes and seeing your face brings chills to my body? is it even worse that when i fall asleep i imagine you next to me because if i dont, i know i'd never get to sleep... honestly, ryan, i feel like life isnt worth it if you're not around. its been so long since we've last talked, and even longer since we last saw each other. i need to see you again. since the first day you stepped into my life, you've turned it upside down and inside out in the best way possible.
i need friends. i really do. someone im me (foxxsucks) or email me (foxx_herst@yahoo.com) because it feels like its been so long since i've actually had a good friend that i could tell everything and anything.
there must be something wrong with me. i am all starved for attention, yet i do nothing to get attention. i dont update often, i'm not online a whole lot, i dont talk to people first because i feel so shy sometimes. i'll see someone i want to talk to and i rarely go for it anymore.
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[13 Aug 2003|01:27am] |
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just thought i'd post this because it made me all giddy :[
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[12 Aug 2003|08:53pm] |
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falling off the face of the earth now, be back later, bye.
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[06 Aug 2003|11:18pm] |
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i feel so blah right now. i dont even know what to do in order to keep a smile on my face. i just keep thinking and feeling well.. depressed, i guess. i've been wanting to call someone but i dont know who i'd call. i want to go somewhere, but i dont know where to go. i just want to do something to take my mind off of nothing. i feel so alone.
i really miss ryan, a lot, as well.. i haven't talked to him since i left their tour. i can't even explain how i feel about that. i guess that's another reason why i'm feeling the way i am right now. maybe i'm just being stupid, but i can't help but .. eh, nevermind. fuck it. i'll think this over later.
mer.
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[28 Jul 2003|01:04am] |
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RYAN BOUGHT ME A PAID ACCOUNT!!! :D so now i have icons. but it took me a while to find 10 icons of me that i haven't used yet. i ended up using some i already used anyway so :\ but now i have a paid account!!!!!!!!! kasjglkagldag
i dont know what else to update about.
ryanryanryanryan :[
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[27 Jul 2003|02:51am] |
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colette, cone, and i are on the wakefield tour right now. i swear all wakefield does is tour, so i just might tag along forever. :[ though ryan says we're going back to maryland so they can go home for the weekend. apparently they have off and since they're next show is in delaware, it's possible. so i get to sleep in ryans bed and meet his mom and things. eek.
HAHAHA. that "gay bar" song by electric six was just on tv. that was the funniest ever. but now brand new's new video is on. =-o i think vinnie is my favorite. he makes hats look so good. the end of the video is really creepy.
that got me off the subject of ryan. :[ which i could go on forever about, so maybe it's best that i did get off the subject of him. i'll save it for another entry maybe.
yesterday.. err.. the day before that, since technically it's sunday right now.. lacey was around and while colette lacey and i were bonding over whatever, our boyfriends were probably being homosexual because they all tend to do that sometimes. or at least jd and ryan do. which worries me.. a lot. but i guess its something you have to get used to. its better than that time when ryan kissed mike on the cheek when they were on nickelodeon. that whole show was pretty homosexual, though, so i can't blame him.
Lj ryan wf: i feel like i'm a freshmen in highschool sitting behind this girl that i think is amazing, writing in my notebook all the things i want to say to her, but can't..
how perfect is he? :[
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[22 Jul 2003|02:02pm] |
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i want to update but i don't have anything to say. i'm sure most of you have read colette's entry. if not then why are you on my friends list please go befriend colette.
i need to visit ryan now :( i miss him
edit; the penguin is so sad its making me sadder
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[15 Jul 2003|01:08pm] |
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i stayed on this tour longer than i had expected to. 2 days turned into a week and a half. i think i might leave this weekend and go home for a bit before visiting the lovely bif<3 i wanted to make it to go to the salmon festival, so maybe i'll leave and go straight to her tour for that date. i miss you bif!!!! and britt since bif stole her. ;)
my sleeping pattern was weird last night and apparently i'm still tired. i fell asleep before the show even began because the night before i didnt get any sleep. apparently slip n slides are really confusing to set up in a hallway. aaron and i were dumb and realized there's no hose in hallways. so we didnt know what to do. but then we went outside and searched for one. of course we got asked why we were carrying a slip n slide around and looking for something but we played cool. but that got me off the subject of the sleeping thing. i slept throughout the entire show and woke up when the guys came back on the bus and i stayed up with them for a while.
jd's girlfriend lacey is here now too and they are super cute together and i was contemplating stealing her from jd because she's awesome. but jd would be upset so nevermind. :(
i fell asleep with everyone then woke up around 12. and i'm still tired. i hate sleeping. there should be a pill you can take to where you will sleep for a set amount of hours then you wake up, and you wont be tired or anything. grr this is the 21st century hello people get with the times.
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[11 Jul 2003|10:14pm] |
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i'm still on tour with wakefield. i can't bring myself to leave. i'm growing attached to these guys. i'm going to make these guys my best friends. and besides, me and aaron bought a slip and slide to wreck hotel hallways with. i can't leave!
i've been thinking lately. which you know is never a good sign. i haven't really talked to ryan lately. he's been kind of distant which worries me. i've talked to love and mike here and there. i talk to jd often. aaron and i bought a slip and slide!!!! thats exciting. i was told to stay away from jd's dad and i tried to i think but he talked to me and i talked back to him. i couldnt help it. i dont see what the big deal is.
but originally i came here for 2 days to see ryan and cheer him up. i guess i had him cheered up for the first two days. i mean, the first day we were like all over each other literally and now we're all distant and i'm off having conversations with jd about scooters and buying slip and slides with aaron. and he's off.. i dont even know. where are you ryan please talk to me :'( i am totally over analyzing things arent i? yeah probably.
anyway. i love britt. :-* britt britt britt britt britt britt etc. she is the best. one day i will put out my own cd and the first letter of every song title will spell out b r i t t r u l e s and the third song will be "i love britt because she is so cool".
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[09 Jul 2003|12:51pm] |
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i dont understand this. i also dont understand why its disallowing comments because i was going to comment and ask what it is that i did wrong :\ he's been distant lately and i just feel all.. i dont know. he makes me feel special. its weird because i just met him and i dont think i should feel like this so soon. but i do and theres nothing i can do or will do about it. i like this feeling. i like the way he makes me feel and i like the way he smiles after i smile and the way he pouts after i mess up his hair and.. the way i get mushy about him already. okay let me stop :[
the water park the other day was fun. aaron tagged along with ryan and i and it was just fun. aaron rules. i wonder how many times i told him that. i bet its a lot. i wish i had a water park in my back yard. i would never leave home. except maybe to go to another water park.
i hung out with aaron and jd a bit yesterday and they forced red bull at me. i might join the addiction. :[ but not too much because i have a decent amount of energy as it is and with more energy i'm afraid i will become even dumber than i already am. :\ but thats okay because aaron and jd get giddy after a while and it makes me feel better about being stupid. :)
dgkjdalgkdj i dont ever want to go home.
ps hi colette :-*
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[06 Jul 2003|03:27am] |
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i'm updating because i need comments and i haven't used this icon yet or something. also i am updating because no one is online and colette sucks and is away. please be my friend. foxxsucks is my aim thingy.
bif was talking about taking us out on tour and i told her she didn't have to ask me twice. i'm all for it. just sitting around here all day can get boring when you want to tour. kind of makes me jealous that britt is on tour with her. well on tour period. touring is awesome. a new town every night and a new crowd.
laffy taffy is good but the flavor flippers aren't as good as they should be. damn you laffy taffy.
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[04 Jul 2003|03:50am] |
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everyone always says first entries suck... and they do. i mean, you only get one. what do you say? here goes..
i'm foxx. i play bass in liveonrelease.
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